Beggars can't be choosers?

The last exam of my student life ended on 26th November 2011.

I relaxed in December, justifying to myself and to everyone else that no one starts job hunting in such a month since it's the end of the year.

So I waited till the first week of January before I began submitting my resumes to companies and I only kickstarted this because there was a career fair nearby. The following week, I had a number of interviews lined up, ending with all of them saying that they'll contact me after Chinese New Year.

Was then offered a job by one of the companies two days ago. But I'm turning it down because it's not what I want, as I really don't see myself liking that kind of job scope. The only reason I would even say yes would be for the decent starting salary.

So my only internal struggle is, what if I'm letting something go when I haven't even secured anything else? What if I'm not good enough to get something better? Beggars can't be choosers, so does that mean I can't choose? Apparently, how often are we lucky enough to do something we actually enjoy doing, furthermore as a fresh grad in this freaking rat race? And as a fresh grad, who has no experience whatsoever, would I even know what I would like and what I wouldn't?

But my question is, does that mean I should just settle and accept the first thing that comes my way?

Sigh.

Regardless, I'm thankful for my supportive parents who don't want to pressure me into doing anything I don't want to do. My dad told me not to worry and just turn it down if I know in my heart that it's not what I want to do.

They are giving me more time to be 'on holiday', on the sole condition that I stop having such a screwed up sleeping cycle (often sleeping in the morning and only waking up in the evening) and be a normal human.

Will do!

Just give me time. I promise I won't be fussy, but I just don't want to regret my choices and succumb because of external pressures.